I can not change . . . for you.

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
no apologies for past mistakes
mistakes are what makes us free
free from what we feared
free from who we'd be
free from holding on
free from tears held deep

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
no fake
no apologies
just real, just honesty
hard crusted on the outside
smooth center in the middle
guard rusted from all dismay
unlocked my heart will stay

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
you despise me
hate me
rate me
rape me of who I be
determined to communicate
the words mean nothing more
words wash over cracks
the cracks have broken more

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
you sit
a winner now?
a winner now, but how?
your point was made
you win?
the sin . . . not to comprehend

You are a change to me
You are
as is can be
you are
no knight with shiny armor
you are as dark as me

You can not change
You can't
you are
the one I know
the one I did not see
the one I do not know.