my L.ove from far A.way

my L

my A 

my love away

my landing alleyway

y miss the la

the la la land 

the land that made me gray

the sight I see

through eyes of ease 

is where I landed once

I made it, made a name or shelf? 

still nameless, here I scoff 

the la la laughing 

that laughed at me

a wave of smiles beat down 

to mold me 

make me? 

miss my what?

fears, but flawless ummm...

I cali forget 

the edge of me 

that debbie, i first wanted 

the movement that is life in me

millenniums never noticed 

I dodged the A in hollywood

I lived in an artist loft

I tried a new evolution 

somehow the carnival stopped...?

An interesting package.

dented hearts

that overdosed 

overdid

Now overdue

Scratched & scared 

but scarred for life

Wounded bits 

of picky notes 

Tinted

Toxic

Tipping over 

Desperate for attention 

A crumbled package 

caged bird 

A young, naive

Invention

:A Heart of COLD

The nerves

The curves 

The crooked road 

Traveled 

& Unraveled 

Damn the damage!

Damaged goods 

The damage love 

We packaged 

UNTITLED.

I wollo, wobble where I go
I do not know
The to or fro
The past 
The pout
The pissed off sniffs
The shade
The fade
From brutal lips
I slip and slide through life somehow
I find 
I fight 
These echoes now
Await me
Deadly dazzled drips
Of cold
That calm my feeble hips
I tip tip toe
Through wounded wrists
I cry the sigh of:
What do this?
No (cow)onward
I SPEAK MY MIND: 

The meek, the many
Mumbled moans
Tones that roam 
My achy groans
No bed I go
No sleep in sight
The might at night
Is more than fright
Fly kites in days
To pass the time
Will I be fine ... Just 1 more time? 

Howl at the Maan!!!

...in heightened, heated passion
A heavy plate of WHOAS!
A heap of hell-blown history
A shot with bloody holes

I hear his hot & heavy tongue
Hissing near my ear
My heart, hell-bent, beat faster
Hot echoes like hard gold spears

Him, who me? He HURT me!
I had to handle this one
Hung letters in hate filled honey
To match his heavenly manner

The words i heard weren't different
He harbors no new hues
My inherently harvested hatred,
...His wisdom, hoistered in his shoes

No hands of healing virtue
handsome ways and full of wealth
I hurried along his anger
To end this heroic stealth

The high/the HI,
unhealthy angles
The howl I had to cast
Hydrated hills to cure my thirst
Of heaping hollow hash

Oh hell was here!
He'll be ok
With a forsaken haze in glaze
This house we built was never a home 
nor haven for my halo rays

Hark! My harp is playing hums
That humble hyper tendencies
Hypnotize me happily!
To the gate halfway, I heave

The hacking into personal lives
The random hippy hook-ups
The 'homegirl' 
The happy to see you, 
The HEY! So gay 
Halfway in between a hip-hop HURRAY! 
Paying homage to MY holiday

my 'hipster husband' I imagined 
Happened to hop away
Now a hockey puck, I hit with: Fuck...
You! I sensed the hmph and huff

I handcuffed myself to the moment 
Humiliating my human form 
My hobby, guns
My words, hay wire!
My hormones could hide no more

The good in me, a homonym
No heroin, but a heroine 
No hero wins, through hurtful winds
Or Losing honor...a horrible hood

I never wore a watch

I watched him as I took these steps
I never thought I could

I must have called out for him 
Through tears and carved out wood

Why did he speak to me? Just me? 
When calm, held nerves of faint 

I hoped that he would see me soon 
Before memories got erased

This moment was of a good time
A long awaited night 

Past regrets in sullen times 
Were passed by - by that flask of mine

Will he ever know my thoughts...
How he managed to open my trappled heart?

Helped me to see the world anew 
The world I thought had fallen apart? 

Comparatively Speaking.

Comparing lives...

Not by surprise 

But does it lead to caring? 

Comparing lives 

From time to time 

Comparing lives is scary

Comparing lives 

From evil eyes 

The past in present ways 

Comparing lives 

Left in disguise 

While others see no haze

Comparing lives 

Through troubled eyes 

Can cause the heart to stop 

Unmotivated states, irate!

the streams of conscious thought 

Comparing lives 

Can bring you down 

A frown upon your face 

Comparing lives 

2 journeys spun

Like spiders who create 

Comparing lives 

Prove to be 

The hazard to us all 

Comparing lives 

Is less than how 

To live a life that's NOW!

Comparing lives 

Is a gamble 

We once made yesterday 

The mind comes back to how we were

When lives went separate ways 

Shall we start over again?

We tip toe through tough territories 

That were meant for us times 2

The tone of the morning after 

Tease testy silent chews 

Awake I am to you

The distance isn't hard 

I bow and beg to you

As pillows guard my brow

I stare your name till death 

As psychics offer view 

I speak as silent to myself 

And glance, the ceiling blue

Pass through past mistakes

With calmness in my voice 

My understanding of this plague,

Is toxic breaths of curse 

...bathing over my body 

As time has made me steal

Like harden rocks of candy 

My beauty in words so real 

Awake I am to you 

Asleep I am to me

Distant I am to you 

...Quiet honesty

'Let Go,' but is a native

A common thread to tell

The tell of a tall-tale heart

Standing, selfish, a stubborn shell

I pull back when I have to

I erase my fears to please 

My needs are placed aside

Spilling over, tons of grease 

I never marked a mishap

I was never able to out due

My constant real-life mistake 

has definitely turned into to you

The reason I can not run...

Run away in the literal sense 

Run away from heavy thoughts 

Run away? My arms, an open fence 

This mistake has me ordained

By secrets in my heart 

The reasons for all the rain 

= Our season from the start.

my balloon

He saved my soul today
Yesterday
The day before...
I count 3 days of triumph 
I wish there were much more 

He saved me from my wicked self 
I drowned 
I'm drowning now...
I drown in past penny savers 
That peak through, stealing rounds 

He is...
No, not my savior
I wouldn't place him there 
an angel seems to fit the mode 
The stars that shine above my head

He's like a breeze passing by 
A breeze that closed my eyes
A calm, cool breeze that starts at noon
A breeze like breath...my balloon!

He carried me out by surprise
He carried away my swollen eyes
He carried me away through time...
"Time capsule, please keep this prize!" 

I do not know just who he is
Or what he is to me
I only know of how I felt
The day my soul was FREE!