I miss my ummm...

6/15/13

miss me?
miss u
Missy E

maybe . . .
IMY2 - IC
i miss u more
more than before
i messed up
why i missed this door
the door that opened up for me

be free
free to be me
miss love?
. . . yup! that's me

miss merry memories,
many moments,
mountain molds

Mr. Stop!
mis - taken
mistakes
miscommunicate

a missing persons
was just turned in
a mystery?
nope! me miss my friend.
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to be continued.

[a love unknown]

a love
this love
the love of my life.

what's his name?
LOVE.

first name: Love.
last name: Love.
Middle initial has an L . . . 
must be love?

Do you know that song:
SAME LOVE?

he danced that song . . . about love!
actually, not that kinda of love
though i wish this love . . . was LOVE.

I'd hold on like a glove!
. . .
to be continued.

I can not change . . . for you.

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
no apologies for past mistakes
mistakes are what makes us free
free from what we feared
free from who we'd be
free from holding on
free from tears held deep

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
no fake
no apologies
just real, just honesty
hard crusted on the outside
smooth center in the middle
guard rusted from all dismay
unlocked my heart will stay

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
you despise me
hate me
rate me
rape me of who I be
determined to communicate
the words mean nothing more
words wash over cracks
the cracks have broken more

I can not change
I am
as is
as is can be
you sit
a winner now?
a winner now, but how?
your point was made
you win?
the sin . . . not to comprehend

You are a change to me
You are
as is can be
you are
no knight with shiny armor
you are as dark as me

You can not change
You can't
you are
the one I know
the one I did not see
the one I do not know.

Painted pastures of past time/the bed we made

I look for him in SHADOWS
created by a cloud
the weeping willows sway
but the doves . . . they fly away

I closed the door today
of what may confuse my pain
its all for the best i know
yet i wollow in deep, deep shame

i didn't see this coming
like a theif in the night
he stole my heart and time
i dance the songs, i rhyme

i can not bring him back
where for art thou? . . . i must say
push away my friend?
no 'sorry' can ever be made

i gaze at past prisons
i smile, a grin in sin
erase, misplace, delete
so i can sleep more delicately

what's funny about it all
he is the only one . . .
i fall, i fail, fight over
i caused the tears to fall
in fall, I thought - start over?

we always want back,
of that we can not have
the only thing with me,
i actually can forgive . . . my bEd.