in ANGST.

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I SEE them as I walk away
as I walk long side
as I creep up through the hall
Can't seemingly swallow my pride

I HEAR them loudly in my head
excuses to fill the time
excuses to make the hurt, hurt less
excuse me, can't sympathize

I SPEAK only when I am spoken to
if I to speak I'll know
just word in wrong I hear it now
the words spill out . . . love song?
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I SEE how every thing unfolds
as casual as can be
I see I never 'let it go'
someone please address me!

I HEAR my pain is loud and clear
I suffer inside like death
no one knows the angst I feel
the way I hold my breath

I SPEAK to those I confide
Counting them on one hand
My trust is slowing filtering away
like short hair upon my head
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I SEE I can not change them
I see they'll live their lives
I see that I'm the only one
feeling so [dipr] inside

I HEAR them talk about me
words so clear in my head
I play the words in monotone
an epilogue instead

I SPEAK openly and honestly
of what this 'real' is doing
but no one hears this quiet B
I wish this hold could MOVE me.